Monday, July 26, 2010


Thank you to all of you for your prayers and notes during this difficult time.

This week has been a real roller coaster ride.  My father had a stroke last Saturday, July 17.  Randy and I flew to Minnesota on Monday, July 19.  Everyday brings new challenges for my father.  Currently there is much brain swelling still going on.  They thought it had stopped last Wednesday, but it has grown.  His right brain is pushing into his left brain.  This causes him terrible headaches.  It is hard to see him suffer!  My Madrasta has been wonderful and is a strong woman whom I love very much.  I can only imagine how difficult it is to watch her husband suffer.  I know the Lord has a perfect plan in all of this.  I just can't see it now.  So, like the song says, "I Believe to See".  I know the Lord is good, whether I can see it or not. 

We have had some fun times with Dad.  The speech therapist was checking some of his cognitive thinking skills one day.  She asked him several  questions:

Is your name Smith.

Do you live in Milwaukee?
"No, No, No, Heaven's no!"

What's wrong with Milwaukee?
"Have you ever BEEN there?!"

Yes, for a week long conference.
"Did you stay?"


Sorry Milwaukee lovers!  We all got a kick out of this exchange!  I sat and watched Twins playing baseball on the TV with him and he was able to tell me all about each player that got up and he also told me what he thought about the manager's style of managing.  I won't share that on here.  I do thank God in Heaven for allowing me to have this time with my Dad.  It has been an honor and a privilege.  Keep praying.  We need this swelling to stop.

I love you Dad!!!

Sunday, July 18, 2010


Dear Friends,
Thank you so much for all of your prayers and notes.  Nancy, thank you for the phone idea!!!  Tori, I can't wait to meet you one day!  Tomorrow Randy and I will be flying to Minneapolis.  We will arrive at the hospital aroud 2 pm on Monday afternoon.  Please be in prayer for my madrasta.  She needs to feel the love of the Lord surrounding her.  Please pray for wisdom for the doctors and safety for our travels.  Thank you for being our friends.

My Dad, Ron Wagner

Please be in prayer for my father.  He had a stroke sometime in the night Friday or early Saturday morning.  He is in very unstable condition.  Pray that he comes through this and that if he isn't going to that I can see him one last time.  I love you, Dad.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

The brethren of the poor hate him:...

Many will intreat the favour of the prince: and every man is a friend to him that giveth gifts. All the brethren of the poor do hate him: how much do his friends go far from him? he pursueth them with words, yet they are wanting to him.  Proverbs 19:6-7

The Lord has allowed me to meet many different people during my fight against breast cancer.  I was so distressed the other day when a woman on the breast cancer website I use, announced that her husband had left her.  He was tired of all the drama in their lives that cancer was causing.  I am amazed at the number of people who are left to face this dreaded disease on their own.  The verse above talks about these kind of "friends".  It is so true that when people are getting "things" from you, they are your friends.  As soon as you can no longer provide what they "want" or "need", they disappear.  How very sad this is. 

I just want to go on record for being so very thankful for the very best earthly friend that the Lord has given me, my husband!!  This fight isn't just difficult on me, but on my husband also.  Most of the days I have absolutely nothing to give him.  Forget about not having tangible things to give; many days I don't even have companionship, affection, or understanding to offer.  Yet, he loves me, cares for me, and sticks by me no matter what.  When I am having a grouchy, frustrating day; he loves me.  When I am having a sick, run to the bathroom day; he loves me.  When I am having a "I need help to do anything" day; he loves me.  He gives and gives! 
Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;  Ephesians 5:24-25

Through the years I have had many people question me about the verses in the Bible that talk about wives submitting to their husbands.  Actually, I think I have the easy part.  My husband is to love me as Christ loved the church!!  Christ died for the church!!  My husband has big shoes to fill and he is a wonderful picture of the Lord in our marriage and in our home.

Randy, thank you for sticking by my side, for loving me even when I am unlovely, and for being an unconditional friend!!!  I love you.