Psalms 27:13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
Mark 9:24 And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.
Can you believe it???? I can a little!! On May 26, our son's birthday, I had my very last Herceptin treatment!! The herceptin began last year on Christa's birthday! I know Eddie and Christa were both cheering me on! I have been having surgery and treatment for 17 months now. I learned to take one day at a time. They keep telling me that time will pass and this will seem as nothing. THAT is hard to believe! I have been changed, not just hair, but my heart!! My hair is curly!! I have NOT had a perm, but that was one expensive way to get curly hair!! We figured out that I have had almost $300,000 worth of procedures and infusions! God has supplied and taken care of me.
I started this blog to share my journey with so many of you. The blog is not going away and I ask that you don't stop praying for me. I still have many things in the next few months. Please continue to pray as the fatigue can still be quite overwhelming. As a result of the chemo and some other issues, I have some neck problems and bone problems. Please pray for this as the doctor tries to solve the pain associated with these problems. Pray also for the spot on my lung. The next couple of months will show the doctors just what is going on.
My heart...where do I begin! God has shown me just how much I NEED Him. I HAVE to have Him and His blessing. My life, my heart, my affections have to have Him in the center. I don't have any big pronouncement in this post, just that God is always good and always knows what is best. Thank you to all of you that pray for me, think of me, call me, write me, and email me! All of you have been so important to this journey. Thank you to my husband for sticking by me and loving me no matter what, for doing whatever was necessary to get me through this process. Thank you to Christa for taking care of the daily mechanics of running a home! I am sure she thought that by 25 she would be out on her own. She CHOSE to stay and help us and I am so grateful to her!! Thank you to my sister, Gwen, who cried with me and understood my fear about the future and the diagnosis without judging my spirit! Thank you to Annetta, my madrasta, who doesn't always understand the way I think, but is always there supporting me along any journey in my life! Thank you to my father who calls me concerned about how I am doing while he lays partially paralyzed from a severe stroke! I love you all!!! Thank you to all the Christians and friends who pray for me around the world. To the churches that have been so constant in sending cards and notes of encouragment.
Lastly, but not least, thank you to Dr. Ueda who has been great in getting us this far. He stayed accessible even when I left Japan. Thank you to all of my nurses in Japan and in America! Thank you to my new doctor, Dr. Bagai.
One last plea! I pray that through this blog you have seen Jesus through me. I have done NOTHING in and of my own strength! It is the Lord's grace and mercy that has taken me through this journey. I want this blog to glorify God and how He has worked through this trial. He loves you also and wants you to spend eternity in Heaven.
John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
John 3:36 He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.
In this verse. Jesus divides the world into two groups: those who are believing and those who are not believing on the Son. Those who believe have everlasting life, and those who believe not shall not see life.
The word believe means to trust, to depend on, to rely on. To believe on the Lord Jesus Christ means that you accept the fact that you are a sinner, that as a sinner you owe the sin penalty, and that Jesus Christ died on the cross to pay the debt you owe. But it means going one step further. It means that you will completely trust Christ to get you to Heaven - that you will put the matter of your salvation in His hands and depend on Him for everlasting life.
Now the moment you do this, God promises you are not condemned but have everlasting life and that you shall never perish.
John 5:24 Verily, verily, I Say unto you, He that heareth my word, and believeth on him that sent me, hath everlasting life, and shall not come into condemnation; but is passed from death unto life.
If you will trust Jesus Christ as your Saviour, pray this simple prayer:
Dear Lord Jesus, I know I am a sinner, and I deserve to pay my own sin debt; but I do believe that You died for me to pay the debt that I owe. Today, the best I know how, I trust You as my Saviour. I will depend on You from this moment on for my salvation, Now help me to live for You and to be a good Christian. Amen.